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Moving On!

Hey guys and to my beloved readers:

I am announcing a move to bao’s blog, partly because it would be very erratic as to when I would blog. And, knowing that bao regularly blogs anyways (we usually operate on the same wavelength anywho), I have decided that I will just become a backwater, undercover writer for bao’s blog. Heck, who knows. Maybe if I’m lucky enough, Bao will change the title of the blog to Bao and Eddie’s Blog. But that would just mean more work for me, ahahaha.

The link for bao’s blog is here: aznbanhbao.wordpress.com

But you all already knew that didn’t you? I hope you do because I hope only my friends read this blog :P

Until next time!

-Eddie

Eventless Drama

Imagine a world where…nothing happens. That’s the world I live in now. Surrounded by the joyful and wonderful activities of other people, stalking them through their blog and attempting to live my life through other people. There’s nothing more pathetic than that; rather, I can’t think of anything more pathetic at the moment.

As you all may or may not already know, I have stoppped blogging for an indefinite amount of time until today. I stopped, in part, due to severe laziness. The other reason is because I became disillusioned with the blogging phenomenon. I found that I didn’t want to blog about my day. I wanted to share the most intimate moments of my day and life with the people I know and love in person. In essence, that is the most stimulating and the most rewarding aspect of life; it makes the lonely nights shorter and the fun-packed days last all the longer. It leaves me exhausted and wanting more of the wonderful experience, like a drug that gives me a high all the time, every time.

I cannot imagine a world without my friends and family. Such a desolate world must never exist.

I found that I didn’t want to share tidbits of my life and pieces of information with my friends. They don’t deserve that. What about the friends that I don’t see regularly anymore? Teresa? Martin? Michelle? (Those who still blog despite my absence) Don’t they deserve the full extent of the experience of life? Vivir is the spanish word for “to live”. The word tells us (or rather it should) that we should enjoy life to the greatest extent. Life is a journey that must be experienced and consumed. If my blog is just to be a mere collection of my life experiences, then shouldn’t the readers enjoy my life and their lives with me?

It just seems too cruel to just give a part of the story or consume merely a piece of a meal when somebody is starving.

Then I realized that all of this deep, philosophical crap was just an excuse for me to not blog.

HELLO world! I’M BACK!

-Eddie

Orientation

I wish I could go to orientation RIGHT NOW. Christine and Marcus already went and I’m stuck here waiting until August 12th to go.

Why do they make all of the engineering kids wait until August to go to orientation? Every other college gets to go before us and I’m stuck here bored out of my mind waiting for something new and exciting to happen in my life.

Summer school for me is almost over and finals should be taking up space in my mind; but, I can only think about college and start my new life.

I’m so pathetic. I check my emails every day waiting for some kind of letter from the college to feed my insatiable curiosity. I want to know everything about the college and all of the activities to do while I’m there.

I only went to the college once a couple of days before the SIR deadline. The campus is-for lack of a better word-ridiculously large.

I’m going to have to cut this really short because I have customers in the store. I’ll elaborate on this more in a separate post.

-Eddie

Big Bang

The Big Bang Theory is a super awesome show. It’s ridiculously funny and I love the quirky nerds that are in the show.

I’m trying out this windows live writer program. It’s pretty cool, I can blog on wordpress without actually logging onto wordpress.

Awesomeness.

Eddie

Cynicisim

Honestly, the American public are idiots.

I was reading an article from The Washington Post about a phone interview with Obama. After reading the article, I proceeded down to the comments section where the people kept ranting about how very unspecific Obama was about health care.

Look, he provided plenty of information. There was a comment that complained about how Obama went on a giant rant about nothing, he wanted to know WHAT, HOW, WHERE, WHEN, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.

It was clearly explained that Obama intended to raise revenue by increasing interest rates on treasury notes and by taxing the wealthy over a span of time. If you all honestly didn’t understand that, then you will never understand the nitty gritty details.

And honestly, if you all really wanted to know the details, go ask your representative and senators. Obama really doesn’t have the time to be going over the details of one piece of legislation. By the way, Obama also left the health care legislation details to be worked out by Congress, it’s no wonder he doesn’t know everything because the bill is constantly being modified.

Cynicism is all good and healthy for the soul, but you all have seriously misplaced it. Even my high school politics textbook claims that Americans are seriously misinformed and really don’t know anything about our government. I didn’t really believe it until now.

I’m so disgusted, go look up the facts before you rant on nothing.

-Still mad

New Computer

I’m burning a DVD, running a virus scan, typing up this blog, running microsoft word 2007, running aim, and downloading updates from windows and my computer hasn’t slowed down one bit.

In fact, it’s only used a third of its computing power.

That’s all you need to know about my computer. LOL.

Eddie :]

Funktastic Day!

Today was amazing. Even if you realize that your life sucks, spending time with your friends will change all of that. I’m really tired right now and I’ll summarize my day tomorrow or something like that.

I love my friends.

Eddie

My Long-Lost Cousin

Today, my cousin stopped by my store today to find his father. I had long forgotten how messed up my family is. I won’t go into the details, but my cousin was on a holy mission to find his father and punch him in the face.

It’s times like these that I realize my family is not the great generator of warm and comfort that it should be. It is cold and ruthless with my uncles vying for each other’s money to escape their own problems.

I have never talked about my family, except to a few close friends. But I think I will slowly tell their stories one by one. If I am to refer to them, I believe that they should at least have their stories told in the most objective and neutral way as possible.

Well, that’s not the point of today’s post.

My cousin had changed so much. He’s 20, turning 21 soon. He has a Cambodian girlfriend and they both have a kid that’s about 2 years old. He had grown much more width-wise when I last saw him and he grew out his beard. He was also very tan so he could pass off as a Latino if he wanted to.

During our conversation, he was struggling to speak Vietnamese and my aunt started cracking up when he couldn’t pronounce certain words correctly. She’s so messed up.

It was nice that he came by to visit even when our family has pretty much fallen apart. He asked my dad if he knew where his father was. To my relief, he replied that he didn’t know. I was slightly afraid that he was going to murder his father if he found out and we might see his body in a newspaper or something.

Whatever the case, it’s nice to catch up on old times. I’ll update on my life as soon as I can.

-Eddie

It seems that today is the day that my family is going to bury my grandfather.

My only regret is that I will not see him before the burial. I can now only remember him through faded memories and forgotten pictures of a time long gone.

Damn it all, I have so many regrets. I hate myself for not being there for him.

Thank you Michelle for your kind words, I really appreciate them. Thank you everybody that has helped me through this difficult time.

I might update again today.

-Eddie

This is an interesting essay that I found while I was reading through my literature book today. It makes some interesting comments about the nature of our society and its scathing social commentary can be felt throughout the entire essay.

Have fun, have an open mind, and enjoy reading it!

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Dear little Six – Billionth Living Person: As one of the newest members of a notoriously inquisitive species, it probably won’t be too long before you start asking the two $64,000 questions with which the other 5,999,999,999 of us have been wrestling for some time.
How did we get here? And, now that we are here, how shall we live?

Oddly – as if six billion of us weren’t enough to be going on with – it will almost certainly be suggested to you that the answer to the question of origins requires you to believe in the existence of a further, invisible, innefable Being “somewhere up there”, an omnipotent creature whom we poor limited creatures are unable even to perceive, much less to understand. That is, you will be strongly encouraged to imagine a heaven, with at least one god in residence.
This sky god, it’s said, made the universe by churning its matter in a giant pot. Or, he danced. Or, he vomited creation out of himself. Or, he simply called it into being, and lo, it Was. In some of the more interesting creation stories, the singly mighty sky god is subdivided into many lesser forces – junior dieties, avatars, gigantic metamorphic “ancestors” whose adventures create the landscape, or the whimsical, wanton, meddling, cruel pantheons of the great polytheisms, whose wild doings will convince you that the real engine of creation was lust; for infinite power, for too easily broken human bodies, for clouds of glory. But it’s only fair to add that there are also stories which offer the message that the primary creative impulse was, and is, love.
Many of these stories will strike you extremely beautiful, and therefore seductive. Unfortunately, however, you will not be required to make a purely literary response to them. Only the stories of dead religions can be appreciated for their beauty. Living religions require much more of you. So you will be told that belief in “your” stories, and adherence to the rituals of worship that have grown up around them, must become a vital part of your life in the crowded world. They will be called the heart of your culture, even of your individual identity.

It is possible that they may at some point come to feel inescapable, not in the way that the truth is inescapable, but in the way that a jail is. They may at some point cease to feel like the texts in which human beings have tried to solve a great mystery, and feel, instead, like the pretexts for other properly anointed human beings to order you around. And it’s true that human history is full of the public oppression wrought by the charioteers of the gods.
In the opinion of religious people, however, the private comfort that religion brings more than compensates for the evil done in its name.

As human knowledge has grown, it has also become plain that every religious story ever told about how we got here is quite simply wrong. This, finally, is what all religions have in common. They didn’t get it right. There was no celestial churning, no maker’s dance, no vomiting of galaxies, no snake or kangaroo ancestors, no Valhalla, no Olympus, no six-day conjuring trick followed by a day of rest. Wrong, wrong, wrong.

But here’s something genuinly odd. The wrongness of the sacred tales hasn’t lessened the zeal of the devout in the least. If anything, the sheer out-of-step zaniness of religion leads the religious to insist ever more stridently on the importance of blind faith.

As a result of this faith, by the way, lt has proved impossible, in many parts of the world, to prevent the human race’s numbers from swelling alarmingly. Blame the overcrowded planet at least partly on the misguidedness of the races spiritual guides. In your own lifetime, you may witness the arrival of the nine billionth world citizen.

(If too many people are being born as a result, in part, of religious strictures against birth control, then too many people are also dying because religious culture, by refusing to face the facts of human sexuality, also refuses to fight against sexually transmitted diseases.)

There are those who say that the great wars of the new century will once again be wars of religion, jihads and crusades, as they were in the Middle Ages. I don’t believe them, or not in the way they mean it. Take a look at the Muslim world, or rather the Islamist world, to use the word coined to describe Islam’s present day “political arm”. The divisions between its great powers (Afghanistan against Iran against Iraq against Saudi Arabia against Syria against Egypt) are what strike you most forcefully. There’s very little resembling a common purpose. Even after the non-Islamic NATO fought a war for the Muslim Kosovan Albanians, the Muslim world was slow in coming forward with much needed humanitarian aid.

The real wars of religion are the wars religions unleash against ordinary citizens within their “sphere of influence.” They are wars of the godly against the largely defenceless – American fundamentalists against pro-choice doctors, Iranian mullahs against their country’s Jewish minority, Hindu fundamentalists in Bombay against that city’s increasingly fearful Muslims.

The victors in that war must not be the closed-minded, marching into battle with, as ever, God on their side. To choose unbelief is to choose mind over dogma, to trust in our humanity instead of all these dangerous divinities. So, how did we get here? Don’t look for the answer in story books. Imperfect human knowledge may be a bumpy, pot-holed street, but it’s the only road to wisdom worth taking. Virgil, who believed that the apiarist Aristaeus could spontaneously generate new bees from the rotting carcess of a cow, was closer to a truth about origins than all the revered old books.

The ancient wisdoms are modern non-senses.

Live in your own time, use what we know and, as you grow up, perhaps the human race will finally grow up with you and put aside childish things. As the song says, “It’s easy if you try.”

As for mortality, the second great question – how to live? What is right action, and what wrong?- it comes down to your willingness to think for yourself. Only you can decide if you want to be handed down the law by priests, and accept that good and evil are somehow external to ourselves.

To my mind, religion – even at its most sophisticated – essentially infantalizes our ethical selves by setting infallible moral Arbiters and irredeemably immoral Tempters above us; the eternal parents, good and bad, light and dark, of the supernatural realm.

How, then, are we to make ethical choices without a divine rulebook or judge? Is unbelief just the first step on the long slide into the brain death of cultural relativism, according to which many unbearable things – female circumcision, to name just one – can be excused on culturally specific grounds, and the universality of human rights, too can be ignored?
(This last piece of moral unmaking finds supporters in some of the world’s most authoritarian regimes, and also, unnervingly, on the editorial page of the Daily Telegraph,UK.)

Well, no, it isn’t, but the reasons for saying so aren’t clear-cut. Only hard-line ideology is clear-cut. Freedom, which is the word I use for the secular-ethical position, is inevitably fuzzier. Yes, freedom is that space in which contradiction can reign, it is a never-ending debate. It is not in itself the answer to the question of morals, but the conversation about that question. And it is much more than mere relativism, because it is not merely a never-ending talk show, but a place in which choices are made, values defined and defended.

Intellectual freedom, in European history, has mostly meant freedom from the restraints of the Church and not the state.

This is the battle Voltaire was fighting, and it’s also what all six billion of us could do for ourselves, the revolution in which each of us could play our small, six-billionth part; once and for all we could refuse to allow priests, and the fictions on whose behalf they claim to speak, to be the policemen of our liberties and behavior. Once and for all we could put the stories back into the books, put the books back on the shelves, and see the world undogmatized and plain.

Imagine there’s no heaven, my dear Six-Billionth, and at once the sky’s the limit.

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